you dont know how quickly i change.

i cant get over you with a snap of the finger. after all, you dont matter to me like the way i dont matter to you. I DONT GIVE A FUCK ANYMORE YOU HEAR ME?! i figured i should stop wasting my time on you, i've had enough. although i have to admit i really really like you, but i'm really tired. i've tried so hard. I'M TOO FUCKING TIRED. i've shed too much tears and too much blood. they all think i'm insane to do such things for you, they say that you aren't worth my efforts and i've really had enough although i still want to be with you very much. i can't take it anymore. i'm breaking down inside, it's just that you dont know and you would never know. and i'll quickly get over cos i have small crushes for other people. ;P

ok i had the farewell party, and it was horrifyingly sad. everyone was crying. i have lots of photos, but i've to find a usb wire to upload it!! i have tiny crushes on yuki and muzumi. HAHAHA! and someone told me something interesting about the japanese girls. haha. after the farewell party we went to china town and we walked and walked and walked. and i'm so frigging tired.. i walked till i couldnt feel my feets. and i'm still tired. i want a digital camera. :D wait, i have one but it's sucky.. :( arghh. fuck. i've a new pimple!! and i'm really gonna miss those japanese girls when they go. i mean it. i dont want them to go.. :(

i'm crying cos, i miss you. even though i said all those things, i dont know why i still have feelings for you. to me, you're something different something special.